I keep thinking about stuff like:
- The fact that there are galaxies I won’t be able to visit (because I’d be dead before humanity goes interstellar)
- The face that my childhood sucked and I could never really experince a normal childhood again in this lifetime (feeling of “nostalgia”)
- The fact that there are secrets the government is hiding that the average civillian will never be able to know (fear of “missing out”)
- We may never discover the true nature / true origin of the universe (at least, not in my lifespan)
- Not knowing if the world is even real (as in, simulation theory, solipcism)
- There would be Movies and TV shows I wont be able to experience (fear of missing out)
- There were technology that I never got to experience “in the moment”: telegraphs, black and white tv, radios, old gaming devices, etc… (I mean yes, they still exist, but its not the same as experiencing it in that time period). To be clear, I still prefer current and future technology, but I just want to go back in time for like a week to check things out like it was back then, then come back, you get what I’m saying?
I can’t ever just stop thinking and relax. My brain is so fucked.
This isn’t like a “phase”, this has been my life for years. Constant non-stop thoughts. 😓
Right there with you, brother (or sister.)
I’m heavily not religious, but my own personal head cannon for what I want an “afterlife” to be like is to just essentially be a ghost. But not bound to any specific location and be able to ignore most laws of the universe. Not having to worry about human essentials like eating, drinking, bathroom, time, etc. And just be able to experience the rest of the world AND be able to travel outside of earth and discover the vastness of space and onward.
I don’t really believe in this, but it’s just what I would want if ever given a choice.