It’s not that I don’t have anyone to talk to, it’s that I don’t have anything to talk about with others, and sometimes it happens that it’s impossible to endure that loneliness and I want to socialize so badly, and I don’t want to drink alcohol or watch shows on Netflix to drown out that feeling, because lately it hasn’t helped. I wonder how you deal with it?
This is by far the most consistent I’ve been with strenuous exercise ever. I’ve tried before, but it never clicked for me; I always felt embarrassed, awkward, gangly, unfit, and just awful. I always walked a lot, so that kept me somewhat in shape, but I was deffo weak and my cardio was dogshit.
What changed for me was buying a small, cheap, simple set of dumbbells, and trying to do a routine I found on YouTube. I failed about halfway through, and the comments were full of people being like “I’m a 70 year old woman and these workouts keep me nice and spry” and I just thought, like… I’m a 28 year old man what the fuck am I doing if I can’t physically outwork a 70 year old woman (not to be sexist about it but just physically yknow). So I kept pushing until I could do that routine, and completing it felt really positive. So I kept going for that feeling, and eventually learnt to enjoy even how it feels to exercise, regardless of completing. I’m up to a five-minute plank now, aiming for fifteen one day, and working on other goals too.
You’ve got to find your own way into it. Or, just brute force it if you can do that. I am reticent to say just don’t do it, because we know what happens to people who never exercise.