I was denied sedation/effective pain meds before a procedure pretty recently. Despite the fact that I spent the entire time literally screaming in pain, they dismissed it as “anxiety” and did nothing to help.
I also received very little when I first came into the hospital - as my body was flooding with literal shit and I was fucking dying. They let me writhe and roll around for hours before they mercifully knocked me out for my operation.
I’m traumatized to the point where watching movies where people experiencing pain is upsetting. I was watching fucking Avatar the Last Airbender and wincing every time someone got punched or kicked.
I also go back to getting my IUD put in - again, another extremely painful procedure that is “not supposed to hurt” so there is no option for sedation or effective pain meds.
It feels like asking for pain meds gets you labeled as a drug seeker/addict too. I made the mistake of mentioning that I smoke weed (because I knew the anesthesiologist needs to know that) and it feels like it was instantly assumed that I’d be a pill popper too.
And I have extremely high pain tolerance. I’ve literally had people whip me until they’ve drawn blood. I’ve worked a fast food shift with a second degree (even a bit of third degree) burn going down the majority of my arm. I’m not a wuss, I know how to breathe in ways that help, I know how to go to a mind palace, but Christ, when you start digging around in someone’s guts with sharp objects, that’s not really something you can meditate away!
Is it training? Is it the fact that becoming a doctor in the U.S. requires the kind of upper middle class upbringing that doesn’t tend to help people develop empathy?
If I give them back the leftover oxy from what they sent home with me, would that help in getting any potential “drug seeker” notes removed?
I don’t even get how I’d abuse the stuff. It just makes me sleepy. Like - marijuana is fun because it makes food taste good and helps me think more creatively. Opioids take away intense pain just enough for me to sleep it off. I ended up throwing away most of a bottle of Percocet after I got my top surgery because I’d rather have a little breakthrough pain on Tylenol and be cogent than sleep 18 hours a day.
In case you don’t see it below, you can request the “drug seeking” be removed from your chart. For a long time knowing the names of specific prescriptions meant you were drug seeking.
So if you had ADHD but weren’t diagnosed, like lots of folks but were somehow smart enough to accommodate your disability and then told your doctor you’d be interested in trying Adderall then they would mark you down as drug seeking instead of helping you.
There’s no note, everyone is a “Potential Drug Seeker”, no exceptions.
Except “drug seeking behavior” is a specific kind of note that can be in your chart. You can actually have this removed from your chart if you ask a provider to do so and they are so inclined. I have a drug therapist friend who removes it from everyone’s chart because it’s bullshit.