I’ve done alot of mischievous and unkind things throughout my education time (k-12) I made fun of people, bullied people, stole from people/stores, hit people, kicked people, did things to annoy people, and just overall did stupid shit to cause problems all because it either felt cool or because I thought it was funny. Some of these were things I did because my friends did them, but some were just me being stupid on my own. I am now 21 and recently I have thought about all of this and feel awful about the things I’ve done because I know it has affected people. I wish I could go back and have never done any of it. Is something wrong with me? Am I a bad person?
No, you’re a human. All of us have generally done shitty things, especially when we were teenagers and were exceptionally shitty versions of ourselves. You’re not “marked by sin” or whatever religious nonsense some people like to say, none of what you did then has to define your present or your future. If anything, feeling bad about the things you did in the past shows that you have grown up, learned some empathy, and become a better person.
Thanks I appreciate it. Since making this post I have reached out and apologized to those that were victims of my behavior. Some haven’t responded back and there are some that I just know I won’t be able to reach again most likely. Everyone so far has said it’s “water under the bridge” for them.