I loved Soma, so much existential angst.
I love the big revelations and how they are done. It’s definitely a game which makes you think.
I also love that they put in the no deaths mode so you can ignore the monsters which whilst cool I don’t think added much to the experience for me other than frustration trying to sneak past them.



You probably need to do some self reflection and examine your feelings towards women as to why you have those views. Have you considered therapy to help you with these feelings?
Regarding coping without sex, for me it was always more the physical and emotional contact than sex itself. Hugs with friends and family help. Maybe something like a massage (not necessarily a happy ending) could help, having someone else pay attention to you and the physical touch with another human might help.