I also would love to know what the subculture was.
But IMO no, you’re not immature. I think it’s only natural.
Personally, I get sad just hearing stories like this. About subcultures, or communities, or groups, or websites, or games, that people used to love and get joy out of no longer being around because they died or faded away over time. That sense of loss makes me sad even when I had nothing to do with the community.







Your 142.x.x.x will be your public IP address. All devices on your network share that public IP. They all have a unique private IP address too, accessible only on your network. It probably starts with 192.168.x.x, but it could be 10.x.x.x or even less likely 172.16–31.x.x.
If you want to operate a web server that users can go to by typing https://youdomain.com/, you’ll need to forward from ports 80 and 443 through to the internal IP address of your server, using the “port forwarding” settings on your router. What port on the internal IP you route to depends on how your server is configured. But a basic default configuration is fairly likely to be 80 and 443, too.
Since you have a reverse proxy, all traffic from your router should go to that. Then you use that to send the appropriate traffic to the appropriate server based on whatever rules you want to apply. (e.g. siteone.mydomain.com goes to server 1, sitetwo.mydomain.com goes to server 2, or mydomain.com/siteone goes to server 1, etc.).