six months after my last workplace went bankrupt, i’m out again. an international consultancy firm took me and all my colleagues in from the failing business and we got raises and bonuses… and now i’ve been let go. only me.
they’ve not managed to sell my skills anywhere for six months, so the decision makes economic sense, but… that just makes me feel useless. evidently the local office feels bad because they decided to pay out this month’s salary in full, but that doesn’t really help with the self-esteem.
after all the shakiness of the bankruptcy and being lied to about great numbers leading up to it, i just wanted some stability. but fuck me i guess.
…so how’s your day?
I’m sorry you’re going through this. Especially with the whiplash effect, that’s terrible.
Having gone through similar, all I can offer is to not take it too personally. It’s impossible not to, to some degree. And it sucks when you feel intentionally shoved through the cracks rather than falling. But it’s possibly just as much some shit HR math or bad luck that is why you got nailed. It’s likely not about you as a person, and more as you as employee #5552683 that was convenient. Which is little comfort beyond the fact that it might not have been targeted.
Take time to process, but please don’t let this get you down long term.
that employee number thing really makes sense, as the company literally has over 350 000 employees and the branch i’m in just got a new general manager.
i had a meeting with my immediate manager today and he basically just apologised to me for an hour. we are all cogs in the machine.
maybe a smaller company will help me refocus. but on the other hand i’ve worked for smaller companies before and the stress levels are entirely different but equally devastating.
If there is a perfect job, I don’t know what it is.