six months after my last workplace went bankrupt, i’m out again. an international consultancy firm took me and all my colleagues in from the failing business and we got raises and bonuses… and now i’ve been let go. only me.
they’ve not managed to sell my skills anywhere for six months, so the decision makes economic sense, but… that just makes me feel useless. evidently the local office feels bad because they decided to pay out this month’s salary in full, but that doesn’t really help with the self-esteem.
after all the shakiness of the bankruptcy and being lied to about great numbers leading up to it, i just wanted some stability. but fuck me i guess.
…so how’s your day?
You know, happens to us all but you never know if it’s good or bad long term. For instance, I didn’t get a contract renewed at a research gig a while back it worked out to allow me to stay home and teach remotely part time, being with my kids.
Prior to that, I kept getting runner up status on dream jobs in educational research. Literally second place after rounds of interviews; left me very discouraged and low self esteem. The positions I felt most bad about? US Dept of Ed’s NCES and another in the Kennedy Center for the Arts. Guess what? My life would probably be hell right now if I got either.
Life just… happens. It’s like a plane crash you avoided but were late to your flight, only with employment.
you know, i just got of an hour-long phonecall with my mom and i came to the same conclusion. there’s no way to know how this ends until it ends.