six months after my last workplace went bankrupt, i’m out again. an international consultancy firm took me and all my colleagues in from the failing business and we got raises and bonuses… and now i’ve been let go. only me.
they’ve not managed to sell my skills anywhere for six months, so the decision makes economic sense, but… that just makes me feel useless. evidently the local office feels bad because they decided to pay out this month’s salary in full, but that doesn’t really help with the self-esteem.
after all the shakiness of the bankruptcy and being lied to about great numbers leading up to it, i just wanted some stability. but fuck me i guess.
…so how’s your day?
As far as anxiety goes, video/cinema started as and still is primarily a team art/craft. Tap in to your local media production scene and get advice from those already in the trade. Apprenticeship is the classic model, but you don’t have to commit to anything. Most people will gladly take an extra hand as a grip or production assistant or just chat over coffee about two they do what they do.
Trade in some social anxiety for anxiety about the work, it will do you good in the long run, because before you know it you’ll need/want something you don’t have, be it gear or some experience labor, and having someone to call about it is worth more than a hundred tutorials.