Yeahh… for the past few months i had been consistently studying for 7-8hrs a day consistently for my competitive exam (avg asian teen energy) and today i had my first attempt, and i kinda fucked it up very bad… its a physics chemistry and math exam and i kinda went blank and the first few questions were very tough and my morale just went downhill after that, i couldnt even do the easy questions

So yeah thankfully i still have a second attempt in April and i might be able to do better… considering i just need to keep revising now i completed all the syllabus

Anyway I am not feeling sad… just kinda lonely and disheartened… i know this is all a very normal part of these things and it takes a long time to get good at these things (this was my third attempt in total coz i gave two last year💀) but anyways… if i get it done the next time its good or i will just move on with my life and get whatever college i get… i just sometimes wish i had a teacher or something to guide me or atleast just idk listen? I was always the “minds his own business and gets good marks” kid in school so teachers liked me but i never had a bond… and now i am studying online so its just a bit lonely smtms (i havent been to school coz i graduated last year and wanted to focus on the exam) so yeah just that🙂 all of my frnds have gone to other clges so i dont talk to them much… so yeah what u guys think?

Edit: also btw its 3 am here lol i just watched a really nice heartwarming romcom movie… i guess i will take a break about of a week tho and enjoy and idk do sm cooking or creative work