Some days I open Instagram and it feels like everyone is winning except me.
New job. New car. New trip. Someone’s “6 months of consistency” post. Someone else casually mentioning their salary hike like it’s nothing.
And for a few minutes, I genuinely feel like I’m falling behind in some race everyone else is running faster than me.
I’ll be honest, sometimes it’s not just comparison, it’s jealousy. Real, uncomfortable jealousy. The kind you don’t want to admit out loud because it feels petty, but it’s there.
Then I remind myself of a few things.
Nobody posts their bad days. The rejection emails, the loans, the burnout, the fights, the doubt at 2am, none of that makes it to the feed. What we’re comparing ourselves to is a highlight reel, not a full life.
Everyone’s timeline is different. Someone’s “success” at 22 might be someone else’s struggle at 22, and that’s fine. Racing against a timeline that isn’t yours is a losing game by definition.
The feeling is normal, but it’s not information. Jealousy tells you something matters to you, it doesn’t tell you that you’re behind. It just means you want something. That’s worth noticing, not spiraling over.
I don’t have this fully figured out. I still catch myself comparing sometimes. But I’m trying to remind myself that a feed is not a scoreboard, and I’m not actually competing with strangers online.
If you’ve ever felt this way, how do you deal with it? Genuinely asking, not just venting.???
For me, I do not have a use for social media. I don’t use Instagram, Facebook, or Snapchat. They’re all owned by big corporations who are known to spy on their users (+ they are actively developing consumer spy glasses which is kind of creepy), and I don’t feel a need to post my life on social media. Maybe you have a business or something and need that promotion, but most people probably don’t need it. I use a mix of Matrix, which is awesome, secure, decentralised, all that, and unfortunately WeChat, since I have some friends and family who live in mainland China, where WeChat is the most convenient option.
Although there are a lot of things that are not great about WeChat (Tencent having an effective monopoly in the Chinese market, they are likely snooping on messages, etc.) I do have to say their “Moments” idea is brilliant. It lets you post up to 9 images with a caption per post, and by default it’s only shown to your contacts, which is really cool! Maybe that’s something to do with restrictive Chinese regulations on the Internet, I dunno, but it’s kind of cool to see a curated set of images in a little feed of just people I actually know.
Right now, I have Matrix for connecting with the world, and WeChat for connecting with parts of my family as well as some of my friends that reside in mainland China. It isn’t the best, but it’s what works for me. Meta, Snapchat, etc. do not fit into that setup for me.