I’ve been reflecting on the past a lot, and yea… I didn’t realy remembering ever just like actually appreciating the moment. Thing just happen… yea felt happy, I guess… but now reliving those memories…

oh man that feels different, it feel so much more… intense

Like watching some sad movie, then you get the childhood flashback and hear the laughter of children, then the flashback ends and the scene returns to the war (or whatever tragedy the movie is depicting), everything is changed, destroyed, or just, it gone, its over, nothing can bring that moment back,

we are merely humans, we don’t have a fucking time machine, I’m not Max Caufield the time wizard, this is the present, this is reality now,

I can’t change the trajectory of history, I can’t fix the fact that I never really tried making friends, I can’t fix the relationship with my parents, if I could just be better, if I knew what I know now, to be a better child, perhaps my parents would’ve accepted me more.

I remember when I was a kid, I felt like I could actually be close to my mom, to cuddle. I feel like I caused too much problems that now everyone just hates me.

I shouldn’t have even tried to befriend my brother, I should’ve just ignored him, at least then we wouldn’t be enemies now.

  • cloudless@piefed.socialEnglish
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    1 month ago

    or maybe… sometime in the future… after you get through the tough times, you look back and appreciate what you have experienced, what you have learned, or new relationships you made along the way.

    Stay positive, try improving yourself. Things around you might change when you start changing yourself.

  • splendoruranium@infosec.pubEnglish
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    1 month ago

    I didn’t realy remembering ever just like actually appreciating the moment.

    The best moment to regularly start doing that hast passed, but the second best moment is right now. It really helps to regularly stop, look around, take inventory and think about the things in your life that make you happy right now.
    Because this moment right now will also one day be part of “the good old time” and that’s how it will continue until the end.

  • Notyou@sopuli.xyz
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    1 month ago

    But also, you still aren’t enjoying the good times you are having now. You are too busy yearning for the past. I don’t have answers really. I have the same problem. I try to practice being grateful. It might sound corny but it helps level my head sometimes. I looked into meditation, Buddha and eastern practices, but your results may vary.

  • ⓝⓞ🅞🅝🅔@lemmy.caEnglish
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    1 month ago

    Mindfulness and being intentional go a long way in helping with this. You’re probably in or around moments right now that you’re going to look back and think the very same thing. I have to force myself to notice that.

    You can build new things. Valuable things. Restore relationships or create something new. And these new things will be what you want to cherish. The only constant is that everything changes.

    Do what you can now and savor it while you have it. Then build something again and cherish that as well.

    You may not be able to fix the past, but you can amend it and build something worthwhile. Or, of course, create something brand new entirely.